Grelae

EDIT: Turns out I can't give my subscription to my new account, so I'll likely still be active on this account for a while longer. At least, until I'm able to get a subscription for the other account.

I have a new account, as the title says. The name of this account, I really don't want to use anymore because of personal issues. I know I'll lose some of my watchers and pageviews (pageviews, I don't really care about), but I'm tired of parading around with this account. Of course, since I still have that forum running that I want to get to 10,000, I'll still log into this account somewhat regularly. But no more deviations will be submitted, and only the occasional journal to remind you all to re-watch me!

Also, I did end up getting my keyboard! I'm so excited. They asked 100, but I got it for 75. That includes a foot pedal, two beginner books, a music stand, a stand for the keyboard, the keyboard, and the power adapter. Not bed, eh? I'm trying to learn Fur Elise, but I just cannot get the fingers right. xD I really need to look this up and try to learn it without using the piano's recorded song.

I'm doing okay. Uhm.. this morning I was kinda upset because a friend was having a bad day, but I'm still trying to be happy myself. I do hope he feels better, though. I also hope another friend starts feeling better as well. <3

I love you all. Remember to re-watch me! I'm still lookin' for a new icon and literature tag, since I don't want to download GIMP to make one. If y'all are interested in doing that for me, it'd be greatly appreciated. Whether that's helping with the search or makin' one 'cause you love me. xD I also need to get that account subscribed.. But I'll likely just switch this subscription over to the other. I hope that'll work. I'll wait a few days, though.

I think that's it for now! Love you all, and thanks for everything. Gonna leave the features and quote for now.

And, of course, all of my watchers.

Yeah, I know it's not a big deal to everyone out there, but I was glad to see that. Not sure why. Anyways, thank you aall, and I'll try to write a poem tonight!

Also! I'm getting a piano keyboard. Yes, I am. I don't know which it'll be, or.. when. I was hoping tonight, but I guess we'll see, yeah? I want to learn to play piano. I have wanted to learn for a loong time. I also want to get back into violin. That would be pretty awesome.

I'm not getting the keyboard because we have no place to put it in my house. My parents wont let me put it in my room because it's a supposed distracting. Fucking hell, thank you for crushing that part of my life as well, Mom and Dad. I love you SOO much. (not)

Uhm.. I'm doing okay. Slightly better, but I've been thinking about different things. Can't wait until November 1st, when I get to see Michael Jackson: This Is It! Woo~ Uhm.. .. I think that's it for now. I can't think of anything else. xD

I'm not doing slightly better. I'm doing even worse. I'm just about to pack my bags and leave. I have money to back me up for a little while, and I have friends willing to take me in. I'm sick and tired of my sister getting all the damn attention, sick and tired of not being trusted, and ABSOLUTELY sick and tired of being treated like shit every fucking day.

Thank you all again. I love you. <3

And, of course, all of my watchers.

So for the past few days, I've been doing really well. Good mood, looking on the 'brighter' side of things, and ignoring people who bring me down. It worked really well. I was liking it.

Tonight.. well, actually, for the past two days, things have gone down hill. I'm not sure what happened. Perhaps it's just been loneliness, and a bit of anger. I'm not sure. I'll have to think about it and see what comes to mind.. though thinking about it has got to be the worst thing to do right now.

I think I just need something to cheer me up. Something that'll get me to smile. Maybe once I see art from (you should all go check her out, by the way), I'll feel better. We'll see~

Anyways, I love you all.

I really do. I love all of my watchers out there who encourage me further, and I'd love to have more communication with all of you. I'm completely and utterly thankful, but I have a few people that I really want to point out..

She's been with me through thick and thin. My sister, my best friend, one of the most important people of my life that has kept me strong and going. Je t'adore, la soeur. <3333

One of my other best friends. She's helped me, she's cheered me up, and she's gotten me going as well. I love you. <3333

A sweet heart! Wonderful art, wonderful personality, and such a big heart that I wish I knew more about her. Good luck with everything, I love you. <333

Thank you for pushing me on and helping me get stronger. I love you. <333

Thank you for giving me different views on things, and helping me on. I love you. <333

Thank you for distracting me from life when I need it. I love you. <333

Thank you for being a friend through the years. I love you. <333

There are so many others out there that I really need to thank, but those are the most important, I believe.

All of you that I stated above, I love you all so much. Without the love and support I've received, I don't believe I'd be the way I am right now. And for that, I am in eternal debt. Thank you so much, and I hope we never lose our relationships.

Quick update:
I'm doing alright, actually. Better than I have been doing. I exercise every night before bed, so my muscles are kinda sore, but I get a nice rest and I wake up in a decent mood.. My name is spreading for babysitting jobs, so I actually have extra money around. I got my hair cut.. uploaded a few pictures to the scraps. It looks better straight, though. Uhm.. I can't think of much else. Onto the quiz!

Instructions:
1. Put your music player on shuffle
2. Press forward for each question
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense
4. No cheating!


HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Motion - Theatre of Tragedy

WHAT IS YOUR OUTLOOK ON LIFE?
Disintegration - Theatre of Tragedy

WHAT DOES YOUR FAMILY THINK OF YOU?
Touch - Bright Eyes (o_O)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Pure - London After Midnight (Tee-hee)

WHAT DO STRANGERS THINK OF YOU?
We The Fallen - Psyclon Nine (o_o)

HOW IS YOUR LOVE LIFE?
Le Chemin - Kyo

HOW WILL YOUR LOVE LIFE BE IN THE FUTURE?
Center Of The World - Bright Eyes

WILL YOU GET MARRIED?
Leave Me Alone - Michael Jackson

WILL YOU HAVE KIDS?
Don't Stop 'Till You get Enough - Michael Jackson (Two, if any, is enough for me kthx)

ARE YOU GOOD IN SCHOOL?
Parasitic - Psyclon Nine

WILL YOU BE SUCCESSFUL IN LIFE?
Something Vague - Bright Eyes

WHAT SONG SHOULD THEY PLAY ON YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Samantha - Theatre of Tragedy

WHAT SONG SHOULD THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Chase The Morning - Repo! The Genetic Opera

YOU AND YOUR BEST FRIEND ARE:
Beginning and End - Theatre of Tragedy

The Soundtrack of Your Life:
Lover I Don't Have To Love - Bright Eyes (Love this song, but I hope not ._.)

SAD TIMES:
Cherub Rock - Razed in Black

EVERY DAY:
Missing - Evanescence

FOR TOMORROW:
Why? - Razed in Black

FOR YOU:
Illusion - VNV Nation (Ugh, love this song)

WHAT DOES NEXT YEAR HAVE IN STORE FOR ME?
I Want You Back - Jackson 5

WHAT DO I SAY WHEN LIFE GETS TOO HARD?
Jam - Michael Jackson

WHAT DO I THINK WHEN I GET UP IN THE MORNING?
Earth Song - Michael Jackson (Look up the lyrics, because this is so true)

WHAT SONG WILL I DANCE TO AT MY WEDDING?
Waterfalls - TLC (Cool. :3)

WHAT DO YOU WANT AS A CAREER?
And When He Falleth - Theatre of Tragedy

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SAYING?
Aint Afraid To Die - Dir En Grey

FAVORITE PLACE?
Happy Birthday To Me - Bright Eyes

DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
C'est Ma Faute - Kyo

WHAT DO I LIKE DOING MOST?
Stranger in Moscow - Michael Jackson

WHAT IS MY STATE OF MIND AT THE MOMENT?
Under The Judas Tree - Psyclon Nine

HOW WILL I DIE?
Shut Me Up - Mindless Self Indulgence

WHAT SONG WILL YOU USE AS A TITLE?
Another Brick In The Wall - Pink Floyd